that I’m actually working. Not the 4 months part time job, or the 10 weeks internship, but a job where I guess I should hope to stay for at least the next few years. Gosh… that sounds long… when all along, your world has revolved around school terms of 3 months followed by holidays, or university life where you have a long summer break between school terms of 15 weeks. I’m now in a 9 to 5 (ok… with slightly longer hours) job from Mon to Fri.
I haven’t reached the state of looking forward to weekends and payday (yet), but it’s not surprising given that this is only my 2nd day of work. I hope I won’t get that feeling so soon.
Everything is still in the ice breaking and familiarization stage I guess… getting to know people and understand the things I have to do. Doing things that years in school didn’t teach. I just hope I can put the skills I have and what I know to good use. Just hoping that things will work out well.
Yeah.. that pretty sums up what I’ve been doing the past 2 days… Just watching the Olympics - Archery, Gymnastics, bits and pieces of basketball, swimming…
I didn’t exactly catch the opening ceremony, but what I caught made me extremely impressed! It was a fireworks galore which excited me! What more… The drumming sequence at the opening… The ‘footprint’ fireworks. Oh.. and I love this magical picture…
I liked how the rings were seemingly peeled off the ground and ’stood’. Heh… oh… and not to mention the lighting of the flame. So magnificent!!!
What I can’t really understand though, is that although Starhub has 6 channels devoted to showing the Olympics, the channels are usually closed in the afternoon. Isn’t that when all multiple events are being held? Either that or 4 of the 6 channels end up showing soccer (ie: this afternoon), which is pretty boring cause it goes on for 1.5 hours.
Fav event? Gymnastics for me… more of the women than the men though… Other than that, I rather like to watch swimming and diving.
1 more week before I start work… Shall rest, relax and watch more Olympics!
Thank you for your concern via msn messages, sms-es, calls and what not. Thanks for being there for me. (ok, this is starting to sound sappy… but…) I really appreciate it. *BIG hug!!!*
Just thought I would like to share this analogy that my sis came up with:
“job A and B are guys. its like a (good) guy treats her well, is so patient vs a (bad)guy who treats her coldly and always makes her wait. fairytale ending, good girls always end up w good guys right!”
Yeah.. so now I need to find the real guy. hurhurhur…
I’m one of the rare few (apparently) who gets rejected going for my 3rd round interview with a senior exec. My friend in there who was so sure that I would get the job was kinda apologetic and shocked cause he has never heard of people who didn’t make it through the last round.
Am I disappointed? Not exactly. Devastated? No. Am I in denial? I hope not.
Pardon me if I sound a little philosophical here.
It was a gamble i was willing to take, went in knowing that no matter how good the odds were, there will definitely be this element of uncertainty. I was a little stressed out by the whole hoo-ha about this interview and stuff. I’m thankful for having at least my 2nd choice which was very patient and they were nice enough to wait for me.
At the end of the day, I had my reservations with the lifestyle - not whether I would be suited to it, but more of the intangibles that I may have to give if I had embarked on a career with Company A. Taking things into perspective, at least I will have a life now…
I see bits of these silver lining… and I’m just glad and thankful.
On hindsight… given my lack of response/feelign towards the rejection, maybe I didn’t want that job so much after all… wahahahahahs….
Ok…. so it seems like I’m finally going to reach a conclusion to my job saga soon. Went for the closing interview today which took only 15 mins. No idea, no gut feel of how it went, but at the same time, am feeling relaxed.
Even if I don’t get it, so be it. Maybe people’s expectations were weighing too heavily on me. The fact that quite a few people think I had a pretty decent chance of making it due to past track record. But since there is no confirmation or disconfirmation of this fact, shall not get my hopes up too high but will prepare for the worse - which honestly is not too bad. Am feeling very lucky now, for all the opportunities and all the chances I’ve had.
Am feeling pretty relaxed - as if a big piece of rock has been lifted. Maybe it all boils down to the ‘at least I’ve given myself a chance to go for the interview’ and if I screwed it up, then so be it. Maybe she just didn’t like my face - can’t do anything about it. Showed my lack of interest in the company because I didn’t have questions for her? Then too bad if she wants to think that way.
Even though I really want this job, but I do see the silver lining of the other one. It’s hard to turn down an org that has been so nice and so patient and I don’t think it would be a wrong choice. It’s all about making the best out of it and seeing the positive side of things.
Maybe things are just inevitable. Just like how I think fate would bring 2 ppl together, maybe there is affinity between people and jobs as well…
The story goes like this…
Months ago, I applied for Job A and Job B. Both are of different nature and for different types of organizations. As for the two jobs, Job A will be kinda a shit job with long hours and stressful life. Job B seems to have more decent hours but perhaps have less room for exposure and personal growth comparatively. In terms of preference, I would very much like to get Job A although I must state I am fine with Job B as well.
Anyway… The recruitment process at Job A is excrutiatingly slow. After 2 rounds of interview with Job A, I’m still waiting for the HR to call me back to determine if I can get to the 3rd and last round. And I’m getting increasingly annoyed with them cause my calls to Company A goes unanswered.
So what’s the big decision this time? Company B seems ready to make an offer… and I’m expected to start work in 1.5 weeks time. So decision time… Do I still hold and wait for Job A?
At this point in time, I am just not inclined to reject Company B and wait for Job A. It’s almost like putting all my eggs in one basket. What if I fall and all the eggs break? I really don’t want to be unemployed for another 2 months.
Will I be happier in Job A or Job B? I really don’t know. Is there such a thing as being happy in a job in the first place? Maybe it boils down to lifestyle choice. Which do I think I will enjoy better? Public sector vs. Private? Do I want to be a career woman who has a global career or do I just want a job? Sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh…
I never realise how much I miss some people until I start reading their blogs and realise I’m no longer play a part in their lives. I have friends I cherish and meet up with regularly… but there are also others… people whom I’ve confided in, gone through thick and thin with, people once part of my life who are no longer there.
Maybe my ‘hermit-ing’ ways led to this… I much prefer to stay home, amusing myself with computer games, books rather than go online. Maybe it’s the fear of not having anything to say them when we meet up. I don’t know. Maybe it’s time to find back a piece of the past…
So… after I disappear off the face of the blogosphere for a while, I’ll usually come back with a similarly titled post. Not that I haven’t been busy, but not that I’ve been too busy to blog either. Just indifferent I guess.
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Been grappling with my sis decision or intention to study in Aussie. I’ll definitely miss her… but I guess she knows what’s best for her (or not!). But it’s become a ‘Do I defend her decision to go overseas to my parents’ versus a ‘Should I help dissuade her from going’ kinda issue which has been see-sawing back and forth. Admire her for her choice of course - Design Computing, something which she has minimal or even zero experience in yet worried if she can cope with it when she’s all alone. Things will definitely work out - just how.
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Anyway, back to my little life here…
Went for the St nicks alumnae dinner last night. Loved the company, the memories of our own prom there. But I didn’t really like the food nor the lecture that somehow happened.
Had a major brain picking interview on Wednesday that lasted 2 hours. Haven’t heard from them yet. I guess no news means good news? And this discussion is going to open up yet another can of worms.
Had another interview on Tuesday where I realised what a job misfit really was. But we’ll see how things go. Coincidentally, Char was the candidate before me… so we had a good time talking and catching up after the interview!
Monday was spent prepping for the aforementioned interviews… so i was stuck at home.
Attended a psych seminar last Saturday with rather interesting topics being discussed, but a rather cmi emcee who read from the script. Went for Char’s Reso concert @ NUS after that… and this song stuck…
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Music is the Key by Sarah Connor feat. Naturally 7
People - have always been singing
To wipe away tears
To ease all their pain
Music - has always been healing
Some people just sometimes
And others again and again and again
So we hope that today you are ready
To understand
Whenever you’re falling down
Hopeless and pushed around
Find your own melody
Trust me that music is the key
It makes you feel proud and strong
Helps you to carry on
If you are down on your knees
You should sing it with me
Music is the key - sets you free
Stories – we’ve always been telling
It’s part of our nature
To speak with a friend
So we hope that today you are ready
To understand
It’s the key to the heart of all people
It can open the door to your soul
It’s the key to a world
Where the flower of love
Always grows – don’t you know…
Whenever you’re falling down
Hopeless and pushed around
Find your own melody
Trust me that music is the key
Whenever you’re losing faith
Just wanna leave your place
Come sing along with me
Trust me that music is the key
Just sing with me loud and strong
Help us to carry on
If you are down on your knees
You should sing it with me
Music is the key - sets you free
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On another note… going to collect my commencement gown tomorrow. 4 years has just gone by. I can never get enough of saying how fast time flies. It’s time for the start of another adventure. Hopefully I’ll be starting a new page, embarking on a new journey soon.
We (my sister and I) seem to have a penchent for late night baking… This is probably the 3rd or 4th time we started baking at 12 plus (AM!) and ended at 3 plus… *yawn…* Cookie with chocolate chips and almond bits tonight… Cookies are cooling… I’m falling asleep…
Doesn’t matter whom you are with
Doesn’t matter where you are going
Don’t you know I’m still waiting here for you
And pray for you
In the sunny days, sun will light your day
In the windy days, wind will lead your way
I have to say you’re my treasure moments
Never gonna walk away
In the rainy days, rains will share my tears
In the stormy days, storms will steal my pain
Just go your way and leave things all behind
Spread your wings and fly away
I’m pretending you’re mine
And wishing you’ll be fine
The moments we share never die
You make a difference to my life
And let me realize
The feeling I’ve got…
Deep inside
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It has been used in quite a few TVB drama series like Healing Hands 3… The full version has never been released though. I think this is a beautifully poignant song…
A thought struck me the other day… Do people tend to analyze their dreams? How and why did they get them? I seldom remember my dreams… but I so happen to remember snippets of the dream I had on Friday night.
Snippet 1:
I was somehow rushing for a train with my dad and sis I think… and we were going across a certain country border. I think it was in China. To my left, people were queuing and waiting for their turn to punch their tickets (Something like trying to get a timestamp on their train tickets). To my right, the people were queuing for customs. And we had no idea which side to join… and then i don’t know what happened after that.
It’s quite weird cause I met up with Siyi and Angie for dinner just that night. And Angie and I did talked about trains and stuff for a bit… especially after I saw her SNCF ticket stub. Maybe it’s a case of 日有所思, 夜有所梦.
So that’s snippet 1 explained… Now for snippet 2…
Snippet 2
I found myself exploring this place - I can’t remember if it was a house or whether they were shops. But I remember walking into a few rooms… and one of them was a bedroom. The one that left the deepest impression on me was this one that was brightly coloured and the room was filled with balloons of differnt sizes and shapes! They had those character shape balloons of I can’t remember what picture. But I know it was a happy happy sight!
Yeah… don’t know what triggered off snippet 2. But I felt happy after that. Maybe I was too stressed up cause i was trying to make some decisions. But it made my day!
Amused @ my parents… They were vehemently against me wanting to go into Company X and were questioning me left, right centre about why I want to work there - ‘there is gonna be lots of politics, i dunno if you can take it’, ‘ i don’t think there is job security’ ‘I don’t understand why you want to work there’ …
But after talking to my aunt, there was this 180 degree change. ya… you should take this job if it’s offered, it is worth it… And they are more anxious than me about the interview tomorrow. ‘You must read the history of the company’, ‘have you started preparing yet…’.
Nothing wrong except that I’m amused… and slightly miffed. Maybe it’s a matter of trust to me. Stop thinking I’m such an idealistic child that I’m just lured by the company or to the job. ‘I don’t understand why you are so into consulting…‘
Maybe it’s because I think it is something I want to try out if I get the chance to? Maybe I think this company or this profession would really give me the chance to see the world and let me work abroad? Ah well… but i love them anyway… so yeah…
Then it brings me to my next point.. Decisions. I’m very lucky to be given choices. But choices may not be good as well.. Do I go with the saying the ‘a bird in hand is worth two in the bush’ and take the one that I’m ok with… or do I hang out to wait for this one that I really want? I’m not inclined to say yes to one and then choose to jumpship once I get a better offer. But can I also afford to let one offer lapse while I hold out and wait for something that may not even be coming? I shouldnot be too greedy… but then again, maybe it’s human nature.
Hopefully i will be able ot settle on a decision soon. next wednesday maybe?
So my 23rd birthday came and went… Thanks for the wishes, the presents and just for being around!
Embarked on a happy, relaxing and fun trip with my family to Hongkong. It was different this time round. We went at a slower pace - I got to go to Stanley. The drive there is nice cause it created breathtaking scenes as we passed by beaches such as Repulse Bay and what now. I didn’tvisit Mongkok as much as the last trip, but still did my shopping at H&M and Esprit outlet.
Food was good as usual… Ate more than 3 meals everyday… Tried Portugese food in Macau and other stuff…
Went spa-ing in Shenzhen… interesting experience. To check into a place to be pampered and fawned upon. I just didn’t like the idea of everyone having to wear the spa-issued attire which looked like pajamas and the fact that we all have to wear a tag with a number to identify oursleves when we made use of the massaging or beuaty services. Felt like a prisoner to some extent.
Went gambling in Macau. Ok… didn’t gamble exactly (just fed some slot machines). but I went into a few casinos to take a look. Love the sleek look of Wynn, Think that The Venetian by Sands is overhyped (It’s pretty, but fake!) - I prefer the original Sands casino. Love the antiques on display at the Grand Lisboa yet loath the gaudy interior. Think that the Greek themed casino at the hotel where I stayed in was fascinating, but not done up in a nice way. Oh.. watched dog racing. It was interesting. Made me think of conditioning though. I bet that’s how they train the dogs to run after a stuffed rabbit.
What I really liked about Macau were the three bridges connecting Macau to Taipa which is the other side of Macau being developed. Well built, aesthetically pleasing. nice!
Trip to Macau brought up many questions - how do kids feel being brought up in a ‘Sin City’. With schools or the town centre so near the casinos. And Macau paints a very different picture. Around the town centre where the casinos were congregated, everything is nice and grand and opulent. However, travelling further from the down centre, you see dilapidated houses and things are just so different.
Ok… so that’s all about the trip… have been in semi-hibernation since I got back last Thursday. And Angie’s back from France! Welcome back!!!
Life has been simple and free these few days. Mahjong at my place on Friday with the SocSc gals and guy (ya… 1) with nice crab beehoon.
Eh… Nice dinner at Ichiban Boshi @ Esplanade (my favourite!) followed by wonderful chocolate @ Max Brenners with the gals on Saturday. I was so stuffed after the chocolate drink! and then I went prawning for the first time ever. It was nice albeit a little too crowded, so we didn’t catch a lot of prawns. But it’s not exactly a group activity - cause we were all stoning and watching to see if the any prawns were taking the bait. Or maybe it was late and we were tired. But it was a fun experience nevertheless. Hahaha… I liked how everyone would know when we caught a prawn cause we would make a ruckus.
Me thinks it’s a pretty good way to clear the mind. I felt it was pretty therapeutic cause I didn’t have to think about stuff.
Anyway, after I got home, I got roped in to play mahjong with my brother’s friends cause one of them was too tieed. Hahaha… They were the reason why we decided to go prawning cause he had ‘booked’ the place first. Anyway, played till 7am with them! And we only played half a round. I think we were all too stoned to continue.
And then yesterday, some family friends came over for dinner and stuff… Always nice meeting up with them. There are like 8 kids of varying ages and loads of adults. Guess what. We played mj again! Hurhurhur… my house is becoming a gambling den i tell you.
Ya… today, need to go run some errands and to start packing for HK. Tmr will be a pretty long day again I guess… and then… Wed, I’ll be jetting off! Well… the nicest bday present I can probably get this year is a job offer. Will just let things come along at their own pace.
