I was on my way to work yesterday when I realised that 2008 is well and truly over. The realisation just hit me like a wall and I just felt overwhelmed then. I don’t exactly know why, but maybe it was the end of a ’symbolic’ year. It was a year of transition for me and many of my peers.
From a student with a rather carefree lifestyle, being able to sleep and wake up at odd hours to a working adult, keeping to a rather regulated lifestyle and only having weekends for myself. From someone who was reading and writing papers, makign notes to study to someone who takes instructions, writes emails, plan and organise events, meet people. It marked a change from a poor struggling student to someone with earning power and is now able to pay for things on my own. From meeting friends, schoolmates regularly to seeing my colleagues more than I see my family… It was truly a year of changes.
Other random highlights – The Beijing Olympics came and went. Justine Henin retired. Tavia Yeung won Best Supporting Actress at the TVB awards ceremony. These are all things of the past.
I kinda hibernated over the new year. After counting down with my family sans my brother on the 31st, we went out to buy Wii on the 1st. And instead of going out on 2nd Jan (was on leave that day), spent my day nuaing at home and playing the Wii. Mahjong with the gals on Sat was cancelled no thanks to a fever that made me sleep half the day away. Too bad I didn’t fall sick enough to get an MC on Monday…
So yeah… hence, it was only yesterday that the thought that 2009 is here finally sank in. It’s a new beginning. More challenges at work. New things to tackle. This is also the year tt my sis leaves for Aussie – in about a month’s time. I just realise that my brother is starting his 2nd semester in SMU. I started work and he started school on the same day. The only diff was that he had the December hols off while I still had to work (albeit with more breaks) and he has this glorious 4 more months of holidays to look forward to.
Maybe it is better? At least 2009 won’t be fraught with uncertainties like 2008. At the start of 2008, I didn’t know where I was heading. I knew I would probably be working, but not as what. At least in 2009, I just have to stick to my job. Well… on the work front, 2009 is off to quite a hectic start… a lot of things to handle. All a learning experience. I think I need to be more confident in whatever I’m doing – but it’s hard when there is no one to guide you along. It’s kinda a chicken and egg issue huh? Work is kinda like solving a big and complicated maths problem. There are many steps and you kinda know how to do it. But if you miss a step, it could be inconsequential to the answer you want or it could cause you to arrive at the wrong answer. I try not to screw up the small steps – perhaps for fear of looking stupid more than fear of being scolded. But everday is an experience. No one would be there to guide you along all the way, 100%. Everyone has better things to do and everyone has their individual styles. Live and learn I guess.
